First night being a dj at a bar, sooooo fucking nervous!!!!!! I hope it’s slow and no one comes in
I want to remind you, that though I may not be around or talking to you, that you are still are always on my mind. And hopefully I will be able to see you soon. You know how to tell me if you want to see me as well. And try to remember you have more strength then you realize, you can get through all of this.
My next tattoo. I’ve decided to get it done and over with when I get my settlement at the end of the month. Win!!
If I showed up at your window in the middle of the night and knocked at your window until you opened it, then said “Grab your favorite pj’s, a comfy/longue outfit, an outfit to go out to dinner, the bar, etc., a swimsuit, and your phone charger nothing else.” Would you come with me?
I’ve never been on the edge like this, I’ve never been here before, I’m trying to find balance on the edge of falling into darkness like I’ve never known I don’t know how to walk along this edge and the longer I walk the more I fall towards the darkness, I don’t know what to do, I have no fight left in me, I need to go somewhere safe but nowhere feels safe anymore, I’m about to give in and let the darkness take me……
Even when I’m around people I still feel so alone. Hopefully the next trip to cali will help my brother might come with and I could spend some quality time with him and talk to him like I need so desperately.
Looks like I might bypassing California and going to start over in Ireland or Australia. I wish someone would come with me but no one will leave Utah so I hope I have the strength to do this alone. The countdown has started for my departure from this hell I’m living in emotionally and physically. Hopefully the change of environment and fresh start will fix my head, heart, and soul. Time to start saying goodbye to everyone.
This is for you, my darling.
Thanks for posting this lovely xo Lang
This is way too true for me in so many ways
I think I’ve decided to just leave when I get my settlement and start over with a clean slate, I can’t do this anymore.
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